Tiredness just hits me like a brick wall sometimes..
June 2013
7 posts
Rain = staying bed with Trevor till ten:D
My pregnancy might as well be interchangeable with the word uncomfortable today.. Love this baby though!
Got to feel our baby move today!
It’s funny that whenever Trevor tries to feel it the baby stops moving. Stubborn little bugger-must be ours… I love this baby so much!
I need to stop procrastinating!
Just got my almost dream job! I'll post more later:)
Great fundraiser for my cousin's Brazil trip today!
May 2013
13 posts
I know God has a plan but...
My cousin will never have her dad walk her down the aisle…
My aunt now spends every night without her husband next to her…
I thought he was strong enough to fight it.
Yet somehow I can’t even say its not fair because he gets to be in heaven… Nothing will ever hurt him again!
Why couldn’t we just all go with him?
This has me terrified that my baby might grow up without a father. I know I shouldn’t think like that but the thought is always there.
Prayers and encouragement are appreciated today!
Good start
I was able to wake up at 6 am, smile and make lunch for my hubby. This is a start of a great week!
It's a new day
Time to be positive:)
Pregnancy blues
I don’t feel sexy anymore…
Fighting fair
I really need to learn to say everything that’s on my mind in a disagreement so that it doesn’t drive me crazy later…
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Shhhh! Don’t tell that story again! Don’t utter another syllable about the pain, the losses that have left you broken, unless you are ready to recover right now. Stop dragging yourself back there, reminding yourself of how bad it was for you then unless it has some relevance to what you are doing right now. Each time you think about, talk about, or remember then, you put that energy squarely in the middle of your life right now.
—Iyanla Vanzant (via hip-)
” —(via mysticmementos)
“You’re not single because your standards are too high. Good for you for having standards. It’s not because you didn’t like that really, really good guy who wanted to take you on a date and you just weren’t feeling it. And it’s not because you like to wear pajama pants as soon as you get home and wash all the makeup off your face. You’re not single because you didn’t learn enough from the past or would rather chill on a Friday night with your blanket and a cold beer than shower, get ready, and go out. You’re not single because something is wrong with you.
You are single because you are single. It’s really as simple as that. You haven’t made the connection with another heart yet. You can get dolled up, dress cute, cut your hair, dye your hair, tweeze your eyebrows, put on lipstick and you may still. be. single. You can go out to a bar hoping to meet the love of your life and not find a damn one in the place attractive. And it’s going to remain that way until it’s time for you to find one. Stop hoping for it. Start living the life that you do have instead of wishing for things that you don’t have. There will come a time you’ll meet a boy and you’ll have to give up some of this single freedom you currently have. Start being more thankful. Start doing that now.” —Why You’re Single | Thought Catalog (via apsies)
You are single because you are single. It’s really as simple as that. You haven’t made the connection with another heart yet. You can get dolled up, dress cute, cut your hair, dye your hair, tweeze your eyebrows, put on lipstick and you may still. be. single. You can go out to a bar hoping to meet the love of your life and not find a damn one in the place attractive. And it’s going to remain that way until it’s time for you to find one. Stop hoping for it. Start living the life that you do have instead of wishing for things that you don’t have. There will come a time you’ll meet a boy and you’ll have to give up some of this single freedom you currently have. Start being more thankful. Start doing that now.” —Why You’re Single | Thought Catalog (via apsies)
I like most of this!
Experiments
My uncle Ernie went to be with Jesus this past Saturday.
He lived in Mexico and so much of my family went there for the funeral.
Therefore I am now babysitting four kids, 11,9,7,5.
It’s giving me a good idea of what parenting kids will be like and making me realize that four kids is not too much to handle.
However I’m definitely having some adventures! The youngest kid has thrown up three times since 1:30 am… Each time the puke has gotten grosser and my tolerance for it less…
I guess God figures he’d give me the whole parenting experience haha.
Still I’m loving it and can see myself doing this - which is good because in six months I will be needing to.
Ill continue to share my adventures with you as they come.
Have a wonderful day!
Becca
Pregnancy Fears
So Trevor and I are 13 weeks pregnant!
Tomorrow I go for my first appointment/physical. I’m slightly terrified! I’m afraid that it will bring flashbacks of me getting molested - even though I know it’s purely medical…
I’m also terrified that I’m not actually pregnant… Compared to most people I’ve had a crazy easy pregnancy. Not much morning sickness, hardly any cravings etc… I know it’s already been confirmed but still.
This is totally going back to my afraid of practically everything post two days ago…
I need to trust that God is taking care of me and our baby (who by the way is currently developing fingerprints).
Why is trust so hard to do?
Pregnancy emotions today...
Fear
I have just come to realize how much fear I have:
Heights
Bugs
Snakes
Frogs
Frying bacon
Roller coasters
Not finding a job
Not being good enough
Rejection
Pregnancy
My first ever physical
Three years ago I was that girl that could do anything guys could. Where did I go?
I’m planning on finding out!
God please help me to live a life not of fear but of your power!
Love,
Becca
New discoveries
Well,
We’re moved in:) I don’t miss Manitoba at all! I love the sun and being a housewife and gardening and making my own watermelon juice!
This just feels like home already - like God is telling us we made the right move..
I’m home alone quite a bit and working a lot on forgiveness. I realized recently that I’ve been holding on to every single thing a certain individual has done to me. If I can forgive the man who molested me, I can forgive this person with God’s help!
I was thinking today, how does one forgive? And the answer came to me: by choosing to forgive. I’m not sure where this will take me, but I am going to pray for this person every day and ask God to put love in my heart for this person. I hate that every time I hear their name or voice I get annoyed or angry. That is not the love of Christ in me…
Lord Jesus, please fill my heart with love for those who hurt me. I don’t know how you forgave those who betrayed you, but I would like to follow in your footsteps! Please help me be who you want me to be!
Love,
Your child and creation,
Becca
